Let Go and Let God Be God

I will have to say that this has been quite a long week for us; this being the first week of summer. While it started off with some fun activities, Western Day on Monday and a lemonade stand on Tuesday, the week began to drag on.  I think a lot of this had to do with Grace not feeling very well.  She complained much of the week that her bladder was hurting and seemed to be in a lot of pain.  We ended up making a trip on Thursday to Children's Hospital to see her neurosurgeon and after a very rough Thursday night, we made a trip to the urology office on Friday.  I am disappointed to say that we don't know much except that she is still not feeling great and no one seems to know what could be wrong.

I spent a lot of yesterday feeling down and sad for her, as I watched her seem so accepting of just laying in her bed and feeling rotten.  I wanted to scream at someone as I looked at her and thought how unfair it is that she has this "lot" in life.  Thankfully, I didn't.  I took her cue.  She seems so okay with where she is and so I must learn to accept it to.  As a parent, I want so much for her, but I must shrink back and remember that God has a perfect plan for her life....what is so amazing is that she gets it....why can't I?  Some times I can rest in Him and be so strong and 

other times I fight so hard to take it back and be in control.  My prayer for me today is to let go and let God be God.  

I am thankful for the joyful moments of the week where we definitely felt loved....the fun activities that Cannon planned for us, a visit from Lauren (one of Grace's OYM leaders from church) and her dog-Jack, a visit from Grandma and Grandpa, several visits from Grace's friends, date night for me and Kevin, "samples" made from Papa and Nannie (the kids favorite dinner), porch sitting and chatting with my mom, and making Kevin and Grace's favorite cake and singing Happy Birthday to Kevin (his bday is in September, just to make Grace smile), and all of the other ways that each of you have showed up and made us smile this week.

Thank you for your continued prayers for Grace and for our family,

Love,

Carrie